July 3, 2009

I’ve Been Dying For This

This lately,I did nothing but cry.I don’t know what’s wrong with me.Currently,I cried of not getting  what I want.I’ve been looking for this shirt everywhere but now I found it,my mother says,NO!Why?She said it’s too expensive.I am willing to sacrifice my own money for it but she refused.Another thing I want is,a phone.I’ve burn my ass and head off for this.I’ve studied so hard to reach the target:1st-3rd place in class.But you know what?I’m just not there yet.This is as far as I can go,ma.I’ve achieved my best.Ma,I’m just not as smart as you are.With so many things running in my head,it’s hard to concentrate;but I tried,and I know I deserve the phone.My teacher once said;”I pray that Puan Faridah will make your life a living hell.”She said that to the boys,though.When I took a deep thought about it,my life is already a living hell.It’s hell enough not seeing Nun for about a month.I don’t know the meaning of happiness anymore.One thing for sure,I’m only happy when I’m on the phone,with Nun.Nothing except that.